mess around
fire and blood
you don’t get
me high anymore

here I am
emotionless
falling apart
rotting in vain

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Day 64 of 100 of an intense challenge that combines my love for music and my desire that some day I will write yet again. The poem above is a collage of song titles that topped the charts throughout the year 2016 when I was the closest to going absolutely insane as I tried to make sense of working and living in China.

My goal is to create one “collage poem” every day for 100 consecutive days. Today’s challenge was as hard as yesterday’s was as I was washed over by a lot of bitter and devastating memories of events that took place throughout the year 2016. While these days I look at those times with a lot more content than I used to I am still amazed that I actually stayed in China for so long. Sure, I am most of the time an optimist, however, I was guided way more by my bruised ego than optimism. Still, I met some amazing people, created some kick ass cool things, and experienced and seen so much that I can admit to myself (at times with a little bit of growling) that China was a wild and exhilarating journey that has enriched my life and hopefully shaped me into a better human….