It’s no secret that last couple years were anything but a breeze for me. I mean there are still days when I wake up and for a moment forget where I am and then look out the window and my heart yelps as the skyline of smog filled Beijing is revealed. What was supposed to be a reward for all the struggles and hard work slowly turned into anything but. I won’t lie, most days I hate Beijing with a passion as I try to not leap from the 21st floor of my building. I ask myself why stay in this hell if it’s such a torture?