I could have but I didn’t
become what I desired to.
I could have but I didn’t
live to everyone’s expectations.
I could have but I didn’t
love you the way you deserved to.
I could have but I didn’t
choose light over darkness.
I could have but I didn’t
wallow in self-pity.
I could have but I didn’t
become a coherent being.
I could have but I didn’t
convince myself that I am worthy.
Because I am not.
I am none of those things.
Never could have been any of them.
Because I am not.
I am not more than I dreamed and hoped to ever be.
I am forever… a never been.