I continue to defy the gargantuan pressure from my inner surroundings, the meaningless world around me, as they both want me crushed and down on my knees, begging for life, any king of life. they latch onto my veins and suck out my smoldering blood. gentleness gone. tenderness crushed. I feel the life running out of me. the darkness approaching. smiling through apocalyptic mischief.